Dreams come true

Since I was about six or seven the grim realization occurred to me, I would more than likely not become the princess I thought I would. People tend to ask kids what they want to be and I honestly wanted to be a princess. How I came to this sad realization that my dream would not be achieved at such a tender age, I will never know. What I do know that my second choice was to be a mother. That's all, I even remember thinking that I wasn't very creative in my desires, but that's what I wanted, more than anything.

My life has been one fraught with waiting. I was single for a while, I found the best husband in the world, he was worth the wait, but after waiting for him, I hoped it would not be a long wait for the kiddos to come. After five agonizing years and one month, several adoption leads that went nowhere, 1 miscarriage and a failed round of in vitro, my dream finally came true.







He wasn't easy to get here. 5 years of emotional labor, lots of tears, lots of stress. A lot of blessings and prayer.





I am grateful for the experience. I was able to cut the umbilical cord. I cried as I watched him come to this world and thought "Oh please don't let me loose him now, please please please..." I spent an agonizing 3 days waiting for the papers to be signed, and I watched and cried as his sweet birth mother's heart broke over and over and over again. I cried with her, we shared the experience in very different ways but we were together for three days straight. He is oh so very loved, and oh so very blessed to be loved enough to be given a family, with a dad and a mom. Oh how she loves him, and oh how loved he is by us. What a loved little boy.








I cannot express the pure joy that he has brought. It is all of my dreams come true and I still find myself blinking in amazement. How did this happen? It's a pure miracle, that's all that can account for it. Pure amazement. Thank you all for your prayers and your love and your fasting and for this wonderful and amazing gift I am embarking on called motherhood. Thank you for helping us to be a family, we are in awe every day. Such a gift.