The smallest birds sing the prettiest songs...

Bye!

baby making...

Hi,

Some of you are probably wishing there was an update from me. We just completed our second round of in vitro on Thursday. Maybe completed is not the best of words, but at this point it is safe to say, the outcome is out of our hands. I spent a couple of days laying around. It's funny how you can feel fine but if you lay around like you are sick you start to feel sick. It's also funny that when you are laying around people constantly ask how you are feeling. I never felt better, just lazy. The actual putting in of the embryos is not that horrific. The taking out of the eggs is not so much fun, but the putting in, not so bad. J watched them put them in this time, and he said it would have been interesting if he hadn't have been having a panic attack worrying about them dropping the tiny syringe with the babies in it.

They put in four embryos. That's all we got. I must be some kind of infertile myrtle for sure. Even with tens of hundereds of dollars of high quality fertility drugs I got a whopping 7 eggs and out of them, 4 were good for implanting. Crazy hu? So there will be no more tries after this. I admit, I was hoping for some to put on ice and to use in the future, but that is not our destiny. I find out in two weeks if it took, and I hope with everything in me, I don't end up with four or more. Wouldn't that be crazy? What if all four took AND one split into twins! *dies* The implications are dire for my sanity, I am sure we would get through it somehow but how crazy would that be? The Dr. says I have a slight chance of twins, and I am OK with that. Twins I think we could survive.

If it doesn't work we will pour ourselves into finding our family through adoption. I do know that the children who are meant to be a part of your family come to you. I fully believe that, so one way or another we will get them here.  I am really hopeful this will work though.

In other news,

My son may be a beaver, or a termite.

Belated...

I still can't believe the little dude is one. Isn't that crazy nutso? I think it is.

 There was cake...

and ice cream...

and presents!


My parents came and we had lots of family to celebrate the day. It's been a wonderful first year of motherhood!

Running with scissors...

You may be thinking, this is it! She is finally going to post pics of the boy's birthday party! I know, you are totally excited right? But you would be wrong. I am not going to post pics of the boy's birthday party. Me thinks, I need my own lap top so such things can get done in a timely and efficient manner. I came to tell you about the other thing I got that I am probably not going to make time to do, but I am totally excited about...

See it gives you a project and then you move from that project to the next and in the process you learn how to sew, and not only do you learn how to sew you learn how to LOVE sewing. This is what I need. So, I am pretty excited about it. The first projects are like making napkins and things but it ends teaching you how to read a pattern and make a shirt. It tells you everything you need and I just think it will be a good opportunity to learn how to sew and hopefully learn how to do things correctly. I tend to wing it and mess things up pretty good.
I have a sewing machine, but it's not very good it messes up the stitches sometimes and so maybe this will help me figure all of that technical detail stuff out, or inspire me to seek out a new machine. I don't know. Since I am doing so well with motivation and all, I am sure some of you are thinking this is the stuff dreams are made of and we will never actually see a finished project. You may be right, but I am hoping I can get a hold of it and run with the scissors I have been avoiding.

Found this in my room,

Not sure how it got there.

But it makes me happy, and that's really all that matters.

Physics called....

It thinks your hot

The pleasantest thing...

The Swing

by Robert Louis Stevenson

How do you like to go up in a swing,
Up in the air so blue?
Oh, I do think it the pleasantest thing
Ever a child can do! 

Up in the air and over the wall,
Till I can see so wide,
River and trees and cattle and all
Over the countryside-- 

  Till I look down on the garden green,

Down on the roof so brown--
Up in the air I go flying again,
Up in the air and down!